The one I scared away...

I know you'll never see this... (why would you?)

But I just wanted to get this out of my system, 'cus I've been thinking a lot about you... and what could've been if I hadn't screw things up with you.

I know it's my fault. I know I messed things up. And I wanted to apologise for the way I acted, so many years ago.

You have absolutely no idea how much I regret everything I did... (or didn't do, maybe?)

I was stupid, I was naïve (I might still be)... but I swear, I know you would've been an amazing chapter in my life.

Maybe it would've been just a chapter... maybe a small one, but a chapter still... a memory that I would have, instead of a memory of something that never happened.

I'm so sorry.

Now I see that you're happy with someone else, and even though it hurts me to see it... I'm happy for you. You're an amazing guy, and she's just so fucking lucky. I can see you're meant for each other.

I can guarantee you that I'm in a better place (mature wise); and I know things would've been different if we have met NOW, and not 5 years ago.

This is my Good-Bye to you... This is me trying to end a chapter... This is me trying to move on.

This  is me 5 years later.